Stabbing pain resonates within
Pulsating receptors ready to give in
Shooting sensations from my toes to my eyes
Waiting for chemical relief, I let out a sigh
Internal organs weep with despair
My skin looks dry so does my hair
A system on hold, starter motor broken
Do I need special fuel to be awoken?
Eyes sensitive to all forms of light
Head throbbing whilst waiting for night
Chest in pain and feeling so tight
No exit or freedom can I see in sight
A tired heart that pumps a sluggish beat
An immune system close to defeat
Muscles tight and gripped with pain
A mind and body struggling to stay sane
Arms and legs so heavy they feel like lead
Every joint and muscle on fire accompany a thumping head
There’s not one comfortable position that I can find
To ease this pain and frustration of my over worked mind
Dry itchy skin within my ears
That I want to rip to shreds until I induce tears
Rip and scratch until my finger nails are filled with blood
That makes my inner ear swell and start to scab up
Stomach cramps and nausea swirl inside
Temperature rising like a surfers tide
Hot and cold sweats I alternate between
Sometimes my body, life and world can feel so mean
Vocal cords strained with words unsaid
Trapped by a lump that wont release them
A daily dictator on which I choke and cough
A life time round - a - bout I cant get off
My mind is wrapped in a blanket of cotton wool
Trying to think or organise things can sometimes feel cruel
Thoughts and ideas get easily lost
I feel so upset how my body and well being has suffered at cost
Sleep brings no comfort for me as night terrors often strike
Miles of parasomnias I ride like a bike
Concussion, bruises, cuts and violent attacks
The odds against my nightly rest are highly stacked
A head of emotions that works like a torture chamber
There’s nothing inside except obstacles of danger
Can someone help me undo these chains that bind me so tight
Because I need relief, a need a break from this fight...
