Vocal cords strained with words gone unsaid
Trapped by a lump that wont release them
A daily dictator on which I choke and cough
A lifetime round-a-bout I cant get off
My mind is wrapped in a blanket of cotton wool
Trying to think or organise things can feel so cruel
Thoughts and ideas get easily lost
I feel so upset how my body and well being has suffered at cost
A head of emotions that works like a torture chamber
There’s nothing inside except obstacles of danger
Can someone help me undo these chains that bind me so tight?
Because I need relief, a break from this fight
Years of situations and memories are trapped inside
Glued to my bones trapped by the shackles of times tide
And I overlook them as it’s easier then engaging their ride
But they will always be with me and have a home inside..
Stabbing pain resonates within
Pulsating receptors ready to give in
Shooting pains from my toes to my eyes
Waiting for chemical relief, I let out a sigh
Internal organs weep with despair
My skin looks dry so does my hair
A system on hold, starter motor broken
Do I need a special fuel to be awoken?
Eyes sensitive to all forms of light
Head throbbing whilst waiting for night
Chest in pain and feeling so tight
No exit or freedom can I see in sight
A tired heart that pumps a sluggish beat
An immune system close to defeat
Muscles tight and gripped with pain
A mind and body struggling to stay sane
Arms and legs so heavy they feel like lead
Every joint and muscle on fire accompany a thumping head
There’s not one comfortable position that I can find
To ease this pain and frustration of my over worked mind
Dry itchy skin within my ears
That I want to rip to shreds until I induce tears
Rip and scratch until my finger nails are filled with blood
That makes my inner ear swell and start to scab up
Stomach cramps and nausea swirl inside
Temperature rising like a surfers tide
Hot and cold sweats I alternate between
Sometimes my body, my life can feel so mean
